So, here it is. Up and running.
I really hope you enjoy it.
Today I am staying at the house all day.
An Australian friend may come over but if he doesn’t it’s no big deal.
I like being here. It’s a beautiful spring day. The garden is blooming. Sadly, the HUGE agave planted just as you enter the main part of the garden is beginning to send out it’s once in a life time flower spike which means that after it has bloomed it will die. I am going to miss it. It looks like a huge spear of asparagus.
The twins are out all day. Robby is at an audition and darling Miles has a job interview with a production company. I am so proud of them. They work so hard, they are both so focused on making their Hollywood dream come true.
As much as I didn’t want the role of mother hen I actually quite enjoy nurturing them both. Cooking, washing etc. In turn they make me laugh and insist that I jump in the car and go with them when ever they go on an adventure.
This morning Miles and I walked to the PCH down the new road and had breakfast. We met a couple from Carbon who had lost their dog. My heart wept for them.
We earned our breakfast with that exhausting 5 mile walk.
Yesterday I watched Dorian Gray with Toby at his home in Hollywood. I am thinking of recutting it. We are going to recut it. Parts of that film are so clever, mostly the parts Joel Plotch cut.
After lunch I sat with John who I had not seen for a month or so. Not for any other reason that he has been on a long family holiday. I have been in NYC. We had a great deal to catch up on. I told him about my session with Jill on Monday. I found seeing her very rewarding. I had forgotten just how a therapist can take the sting out of ones tail.
I told him what was going on in NYC with The Penguin, he looked very pleased with himself. “I told you so.” He never ever liked The Penguin. The Penguin knew John didn’t approve.
Yet, for all of his self-congratulation he was compassionate and kind. He doesn’t/didn’t want to see me suffer but equally he could see what was going on from the very beginning.
I talked with Jill about this next touchy subject and shared it with John.
Can I mention the touchy subject?
Apart from the touchy subject Jill called me a ‘late bloomer’. She said that my heart had been broken. We talked about love addiction. Making a person your higher power rather than God. We talked about going into Pine Grove and getting my power back. I talked about having no consequences…or at least any that scare me. We talked about nihilism.
I don’t know if I can mention the touchy bit. It is so freshly revealed.
I can’t. All I can say is…it’s about grieving.
Dan called to tell me that the shelves I designed for his apartment look spectacular.
I was in bed by 10.30. Up at 5.30 this morning.