It sure is odd living in Malibu again. As if the past 18 months in Hollywood just never happened. It has been raining and chilly all day today. The gardeners came yesterday. 8 of them buzzing around the property dealing with the last 18 months worth of growth. Today they returned to attack the larger trees and make them fire proof. Lets face it though..there are no fires imminent. This year has been British damp. Poor little dog is shivering on the sofa.
12 people for lunch yesterday. I flayed a chicken and cooked it with rosemary and lemons from the garden.
A great bunch. Lots of love. Surrounded by a great deal of unconditional love and conversation. JAR and me are about the same age and have trodden the same path for many, many years but only really met here in LA. She is possibly one of the most gorgeous women in the world. Beautiful on the outside and equally beautiful on the inside.
It was a wonderful welcome back to Malibu. Tomorrow night I am having dinner with Jenny A at SHLA. She just drove from Mexico en route to London. I am trying to fill my days with old friends. They seem to more than adequately fill the void.
I am going to Palm Springs this weekend to a gay sober convention. Meetings, meetings meetings. Trying to connect with my tribe. Then, rather annoyingly I have to go to NYC. I am REALLY not looking forward to that.
When one can peek through at the various secret paths and vistas this place becomes magical. You know, don’t you that I am putting the house on the market? I am SURE it’s going to be impossible to sell but hey, let’s try shall we?
If I can get everything here and sell the house I will then try selling everything IN the house. I wanna get out of here with one small bag of treasure and the Little Dog.
Travel light from now on. Too much stuff. Far too much STUFF. Inside and outside my head.
The best part of that insightful comment I received the other day was the advice about getting strong around my health and finances. I really have to deal with shit in those areas.
My back aches. My balls ache. My head hurts. My fingers are dry. My tummy is swollen. My eyes are sore.
Yet, I am going in the right direction. I really DO try and make a better life for myself. I am not going to drink and take drugs but sometimes I think it would be a whole heap easier. I bet I could meet a drug fucked loser in twenty seconds if I towed the line..went to gym, took drugs, drank at bars.
That was a joke everybody!
Just a joke.