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Nightmare

Still not bothering to go to parties.  I will tonight tho.  It’s my last night in H’wood apartment so am taking dogs to art party in Beverly Hills.  Maybe.

Maybe?  Well, nearer the time I just might sort my cupboards instead.

Last night I stayed over with Jennifer and Jason at their house in deep Malibu.

Slept very badly.  Nightmare:  In the dream The Little Dog had lost a paw and was trying to keep up with me but was in terrible pain.  I don’t know who said it, maybe Freud, that every element of a dream is you.  It is all me.  I am the little dog trying to keep up even though I am in terrible pain.

Jennifer’s grocery delivery business goes from strength to strength.  She now has a refrigerated truck for deliveries.  I am very excited to receieve my first Out of The Box Collective visit on Saturday.

Ashley is throwing a party at the house on Sunday so I assume we will be eating everything they deliver, all the fresh, organic food..then.

I had a great clearing out day.   Draws and cupboards emptied.  Two great bags of junk taken directly to the trash.

I feel like a gulf has opened up between me and what I can achieve.  I work best when it is for or with someone.  How did I achieve half the things I achieved?

Maybe I didn’t achieve anything at all.

3 replies on “Nightmare”

I believe that was me, paraphrasing Jung. It is important not to focus only on one aspect of the dream though. You were in the dream as well. What was your reaction to the Little Dog? Were you encouraging him? Helping him along? Waiting for him? Taking care of him?

All that organic produce sounds like heaven.

Duncan – You need a partner – a true partner and I will continue to petition that for you. In the meanwhile, you are doing all the right things – clearing out junk, staying social (even if your heart may not be 100% into it) and observing your feelings and thoughts. I think you have exceptional courage, honesty, heart and endurance. You may actually encounter your answers through your diagnosis and the treatment therefor. Many do. Just a thought.

I think your relationship with jake was addictif now that is gone your cleaning up. my house Had never been so clean then when I stopped getting stoned.

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