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I’m Getting Older Too…

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This is far better than the original…

I JUST REREAD THIS POST.  IT IS SO BORING!

Hahahaha

Without intensity and drama what becomes of me?

I woke up feeling really positive.  I am really beating this one.  Really.

A simple day.  I am losing weight.  I saw my reflection.  It gives me great pleasure to see a flat tummy.

I decided to give Manhunt a try as I had paid for that account to snoop on u know who.  It was good to get some interest from cute looking men but I felt as if I had come full circle since I was last living here.  At least I am being myself on Manhunt rather than disguised by some fake profile just to hear the reassuring ping of interest.

Almost immediately two men recognized me from the show and two friends.  It was fun.

Talked to realtor about what he wanted me to do to the house before we put it on the market this November.  He said nothing.  He said whoever bought it would probably tear it down.

I made jam.  I made a jam.  Strawberry jam.  Tomorrow I am going to finish up after the gardeners.   Today the little dog ran around after me in the garden.   We drove to Venice and ate breakfast at Sauce.  How quickly the staff get to know me.  They remember after just two visits what I have and how I like it.

I like that.  I like being taken seriously.

Scrambled, tomatoes..grilled.

6 replies on “I’m Getting Older Too…”

Duncan,

The child within you, CAN rise above. The “New Testament” says that one must have the innocence of a child to get into heaven. It also advises one to be as gentle as a dove and as wise as a serpent. Deep within, you’re still that wonderful little boy, albeit, behind walls of steel and moats of fiery lava. And the annealing of your heart is giving you wisdom. The gentleness needs a bit more attention.

I read that we do revisit where we have been, to solidify our gains, and to gain more perspective but this, movement does not trace a circle but a spiral. We revisit where we’ve been from a higher point in our journey into the universe. Going on Manhunt, seeing those pictures, getting that “hit” is putting yourself back into a repeating loop. Not an ascending spiral. Whether you are being “yourself” or not… it’s enabling your addiction but in a more subtle way. I know that you get this. Opening that account, was born of a suspicious, resentful, and vengeful mind. Don’t even subtly feed that part of you. Forget, too, about the part of you that whispers that you can surreptitiously, check up on Jake. Playing this game with yourself will come to no good end. Admit to yourself that your mad head is trying to find ways to keep you stuck. Cancel the account. Move forward. We’re pulling for you. We can all psychically yell “THIS is your PUSH” together, if that will get through to you. 😉

Blessings,

Amanda

MS: What I meant by “THIS is your PUSH” is that Duncan has said that he’s got to be pushed to do things that he’s already identified as needing to be taken care of… but he doesn’t, like his finances and foremost and most important — his health. I want him to feel that we are pushing him forward. Blessings.

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